I am both excited and a bit terrified of the challenge I have set myself for this November. This is a creative marathon that is both vulnerable and exhausting. Putting in the work to find my voice is going to be worth it I can feel it.
That being said this will certainly be a true endurance event. Each post was a struggle to put up because my creative wheels are frozen with fear and rust.
I both hope that no one ever reads any of these but that is also like my biggest fear. I am weary of my words being unheard and fading into nothing. The strength of permanence of the blog though is terrifying in its eternity.
The absurd juxtaposition of my philosophical and artistic ideals and then cool stuff I bought on Amazon reviewed. The surreal bit is that I love telling people about cool stuff I bought online. I am a fun little magpie.
I have been a bit shy about posting amazon affiliate posts. I intellectually know that its all in my head. But I feel anxious about it. Maybe its just the age old mortifying ordeal of being known, but by myself.
This month is going to be such a great and powerful challenge. 50,000 words written in November here I come!!!
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At 1,622 words for day 1 around 8pm. This is going to be a MARATHON!